I Have Depression. Here’s My Story.

Screen Shot 2016-07-13 at 9.32.31 AMEver since my sophomore year of college, I’ve had episodes of depression. These episodes would vary in duration and hit me every few years. Sometimes they were a few years long, sometimes they’re only a few months. During these episodes my mood takes a deep dive into the waters of apathy and indifference, each time my motivation reached new lows.

Back then I assumed that this was simply what it was like to be a college student; that this was what all my other peers went through in their daily lives. I thought the struggle to function was normal. However, after graduation, it started to become apparent to me that something wasn’t right. I never talked in depth about these episodes to anyone in college, but when I discussed them with my closest friend and confidant, Jean, she was clearly worried. I was surprised when told me about her own experience with depression and that she had had two episodes of depression in her life. Talking to someone was the wake up call I needed. After talking with Jean, I realized that my life could be different. I wanted it to be different. I needed it to be different.

I started seeing a psychiatrist about my symptoms three years ago.  I was diagnosed with depression and was prescribed an antidepressant. For the first two years, it worked like a charm. However, near the end of those two years, my meds began to wane in their effectiveness. You know, a blue day here, and then gone. By the time a few more months had passed, the storm clouds gathered and it was time to get back to the psychiatrist’s office for a re-evaluation.

I told him that as of a year ago, I felt like my meds lost their effectiveness. I’ve been going back and forth between different meds to find one that works for me, with no real success. My frustration is now fueling my desire to find options beyond what my present psychiatrist can provide. Cancer patients trend toward research studies when chemo stops working. I have looked up my research options and already have my first two appointments scheduled with a local psychiatrist that performs clinical studies. There’s more to come…..   

If this story sounds a lot like your life or that of someone close to you, please contact the Institute for Advanced Medical Research at 770-817-9200 to learn more about depression and see if a clinical research study could be a good fit for your situation.